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i jus love him.

2006-09-12T20:36:00.000-07:00

she talked to me.
when i saw her talkin to me..
i was really very shocked ba..
cos everyday i wld ponder n ponder..
will we two still be frens mahs ?
really duno wad she thinks n how she feels ?

i dun blame her..
nor hate her frm e begining..
really.. i dun..
instead.. i really still hope n hope everyday dat..
we cld still b frens..talk to each other..
instead of being so cold..

i really duno hw to solve e things between we three..
it seems so easy..yet so difficult.
wad if my waiting for him is so long..
will it make any changes ma ?
n wads my pt of noeing his ans..
wait for one yr den will have one ans..
mus i wait for another yr to have e other ans ?
bud though. i noe it jus really dumb..

i kept reproaching myself..
scolding myself..
times again n again..
why jus cant i give him up..
nor give up my love for him..
n for once sae it loud n clear dat..
i dun love him anymore!
BUD. why cant i jus do it..

i've jus pulled myself up a little frm all e hurts i've gt.
i thought.. i given up on him a little already during the holidays.
budd.
today whn i saw him agains..
its different agains. =.=
getting uptight to everything dat happened to him.
bud yet i will pretend as if i don giv a slightest damn.
bud perhaps onlie a slight concern to him as a normal person wld do.

what shd i do ?
anyone teach me mahs ?
perhaps i shd jus leave...
shd i ?

2006-09-06T21:40:00.000-07:00

GENOME INSTITUTE OF SINGAPORE. (:
oh wells. hee. i simply love biopolis.
lalalas. bio.bio.biology!
hahas! its jus so cool lor. hee. 7 tall buildings make up biopolis!
was dere frm 7.30am till 4+ in e afternoon.
though half e time.
those talks were boring enough to bore me to deaths..
budd those lab visits was simply ... perfect!
hahas. we wore lab coats.. blue ones..white ones..

saw those machines which were lk..
CUTES! hahas.
n had super loads of fun wiv farhanah.daniel.shaoquan.n alvin!
hee. thks for makin e trip to be a fun one.
e part which i like most was..
the genome buliding.
whr its abt cloning..cancer..chromosomes n stem cells. (:
hee. those doctors n researchers dere seemed so wei da..
becos deir research wld meant..
dey cld save lots of pple frm cancer.

n at e same time.
dey taught us teenagers more abt wad r cancers..
chromosomes n stuffs dat leads to cancer.
hahs. tis makes me wanna go ahead n be a researcher as well..
even a part time one will do ! (:
hehe. so i can lend my helpin hand out..
so more pple can live longer in deir lives to do wad dey yearned to do.
budd wells..hee. dats jus a thought ..
im still too young to accomplish such noble stuffs. x)

today. had cca as usuals.
hmm. bud. i was feeling especially dwn today.
esp. ard .. one plus in e noon.
tried finding pple to tok to me..
bud none a person was free..
is either dey r busy. if nt dey r nt suitable to talk to me as well.
as in.. dey r worst off den me.
so i jus took 184 alones..190 alones.
n sumhw waiting for 184 in dat bus stop.
which for a moment..seemed so big to me..
n it seemed so silent.
duno y ba ? perhaps. ms straw straw is imagining tings agains.
hee. as usuals i suppose.

den durin co. den went home .
wiv sistas.
felt a lil better after those crappins wiv jack n ken before co starts.
n qing tian was darn niice. hee.
ken played it. (:on e guitar. =P

THOUGH,things seemed more peaceful for me.
n i SEEMED more happy wiv the smiles on me.
n those craps wiv him too.
bud somehw i jus cant get some things over.
some things r just..
no matter how i tried to throw dem aside.
i still cant get them dwn n out of my sight whr i can see n rmb.
why am i holding on things which will make me cry?
why do i chose to continueingly love dat person even whn im alreadi hurt more den once n twice or thrice.?

I jus kept holding on..
hold n hold.
nt being able to accept others.
nt being able to let go..
everytime.. u walked away. wiv ur coldness.
i will always ponder.. n wonder..
why will u leave.. why will u have dat look on ur face..
really dat sad mahs ? really dat angry ma ?
or sth serious happened le ?
jus duno why ba.

am i really so use to ponder abt everything ard me ?
or is it ..cos dat person is u ?
dats y u jus kept appearing in my mind.
uhmm. hao ku nao orhs..
ni zhe ge ben ben dans! =X
sometimes jus feel lk scolding u nors.

i clearly noe dat..
i still love u .
bud.
why do i keep bluffing myself!
[ its nt gd ! canot bluff. stop bluffing le..!! >.< ]
n jus simply remind myself.
u r my bro.bro.bro. !
who am i bluffing whn i sae i forget u alreadi ?
who am i bluffing whn i sae i dun love u ?
or whn i sae i give up le.
forgotten u .

zhen de..hao shang nao jing.
hao ku nao .
any wizards or fairires frm the sky to teach me ?
or any mocha or strawberries ?
or chocolates frm lalas land ? =.=

2006-09-04T13:33:00.000-07:00

how i wish time will fly..
fly till friday ! hee.
budd seems so nt impossible.
budd iif time fly so fast..means my holiday will be so short.
if it flies slower..
meant dat i mus wait till so long for dem to be back.

haha. so im jus contradicting..
hee. duno wan it to fly fast or fly slow.
hahas. budd wells.
i can de ba. shall mug hard. play hard. study hard.
no matter how hard life will get.
cos im strawberry rites! xD

truthfully.. hmm. i jus wonder n ponder to myself..
m i really ok mahs?
after so many happens.
n wad i see n heard everyday..
n try not to tok to u so much n etc..
hmm. shows dat im began to let go abit le ma?
for tis..im still puzzled ba..
bud i guess .. hee. one ting i noe is! running away frm dem seems not bad a choice ! winks-*

hahas! all i wan is smiles.
nth bud smiles.
n i reject tears and sorrows le !
stop giving dem to me okiies!
i dun wan to experience e feeling whereby even me myself pity myself agains!
dats nt a very brilliant feeling either.

oh yahs. n sat. was a fun dae.
hahas. shopping spree was super fruitful.
budd dentist. =.= super paiins..
till today. nt okies yets. budd i jus kind of heck care.
cos if i bother too much of e hurts..
i everything also canot eat le ! =P
den sundae. went for EL tuition as usuals.
bud before dat went bras basah. to buy books.
lots n lots of bookss n stationaries. (:
den went to bugis for tuition.
its suppose to be at novena.
budd my tuition centre moved place. to bugis. ^^

den whn alight frm dad's car.
saw kelvin n gabriel n mrs chu.
so mrs chu asked gabriel n kelvin to bring me up.
hahas. dey two is jus super comicals de.
simply cant stand dem!
as well as ben ! xD
den later after tuition.. also went dwn wiv dem
cos adeliene was nt dere on sunday.
hee. thks pple for showing me e wae ard.
cos. e building is so .. dark ?
n so scary..

hahas. as usual. im nt the one hu is very brave. =X
n today.
borings.
two tuitions.
10am to 12pm
2pm to 4pm.
going to have tuition soon le.
so gonna end my blog for nw..
oh ya. hopefully..
biopolis trip tmr is gonna be fruitful n enriching ! hehe.
loves loves biology` (:

miss ya`
miss all e lalas pple in obs.
hehe. take lots of care alrites.

miss u miss u !

2006-09-01T17:24:00.000-07:00

im borred..
so bored. sobbs..
today was e most boring day i ever had nors.
hmm.
nw i came to realise..
wivout pigpig. wivout apple.
is so bored de. =/
wivout sora pple online..
wivout my twinny..
oh mys. :(

tryin to entertain myself as much as i cld .
hee. includin prac. piano more den anydae i do.
watched princess hours for e longest time ever.
n i sms-ed the least todae .
wa. everything i cut dwn
hahas. cos.
sumone busy. haha. since las nite till tonite i guess too ba.
bleahs.

den later five daes.
oh mys. tink i will really die ...
lalalas.
jus kind of nt feeling very..
right nw..
as in.. nt feeling well..
=.=
forget it ba. everything shd b k..

happy teachers dae. to all my beloved teachers. hee.

running awae.

2006-08-31T21:21:00.000-07:00

halos!
hees. todae is e eve of teacher's dae (:
supposedly to have x-country de..
budd it was raining cats n dogs..
hahas.. nt tat heavy though..
jus those..drizzles pouring n pouring dwn..
bud despite e rain.
despite e coldness e rain gave me..
i still felt.. today was a nice dae.
nice as in..
i guess i din really tot abt sad things ba.
erhs. actually i did. bud..it was reduced..

for e past few daes.
i still receive present everyday! hahas`
thanks pple! hehe. simply love u all . (:
i was all alone in e mornings!
luckily farhanah acc me!
hees. thkks gall ! chattin wiv u .. is so fun too.

den during performances.
was kind of crappins away wiv weihsin n chongying
hahas. the two sweetharts! xD
lalalals. n later pj cum pei me le!
weets. todae c twiny den mus a wk later den will c le!
hahas. going to miss u twinny !
hee. ems.. n apple too.
mus takkairee of urself pple!! hahas.
if nt will box u all de. =P

hahas. n den todae.
went lot one wiv pj .. for lunch.
n den went shoppin ard for sora tings.
found it le!
after mths of tinking..
hees. its kind of ex.
bud. nt really too.
hahax. duno ba. its alrites.! (:

guess..im running n running awae frm tings.
running. seemed a better choice.

my birthday. (:

2006-08-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUHUI !
hahas.. todae is my birthdae!
whees. simply love my day.
cos.. i end up like a santa claus..
holding lots of presents in my hands..
carrying n tugging at dem to bring dem home.
cos.. dey r heavy norrs..

firstly whn i reached school..
hahas. had my first present frm serwee n peijie.
hehe.. grasses ! loves u two.. hahas..
super cutes de tings u all gave me.. (:
den followed by..
Shuni.Xiaoting.Benny
chongying give me de..
den hmm. e mysterious person!
hahas..
n den zhihao n marcus..
n den pangwee..

heehee.
simply had lots of greetings frm lots of pple..
hmm.
thankew sharmini.marcus(outside sch ).ben.shuni.three nine pples.my sistas.. n etc n etc! hahas..
u all really so sweets.. every n every tings u all told me todae.
can touched me to tears le..

hahas. esp. hmm. mysterious person.
thankew! hees.
really very very touched by e tings u rote..
n e tings u gave! hahas..
n peijie! thankew twinny. hee.
n yh.vin.wq. ahahs. thks alotss brothers! =P
though..
those presents were heavy..
n big..
budd i still wun complaint..
budd slowly carry dem home..
hahas.

n nw..i've gt 4 more bears.
a photo album. a cup. lots of notes..greetings.. sweets. biscuits. drinks.
hahas.. etc n etc.
hahas.. pple.. thankks lots n lots.
gt nth to sae except thks to u all !
cos of u all..
my dae todae..
becum another dae which i can smille le..

n cos of additional bearrs.
soon i guess.
yuhui dun have place to sleeps alreadi..
all filled wiv bears. =/
hahas. ( abit too.. exaggerating though )
bud i simply love e winnie e pooh bear!
hahas.. hen ke aiis.. =P

its u n still u .
wherever i go.
wadever i c.
i onlie saw u .

SENTOSA~

2006-08-27T14:33:00.000-07:00

simply love 26.08.2006.
its the super nice day ever. =P

went to sentosa wiv henry,alvin,peijie, n yuhui ! (:
hehe. it was jus dat beautiful day..
whr we four all agreed dat !

hmm. in e morning i had pianos.
pianos test to b more exact. hee.
n i passed. yays! yippees.
den went to find sora in bball court.
kind of fun ba. hehe.
den ard..11am lidat..
we four set off to sentosa! hee. off we go. (:
took 960 all e wae to harbour front.
den we went harbour front to eat subway.
n den went to take free shuttle bus to sentosa`

so while we reached sentosa..
we bought those admission tickets n stuff to get into sentosa.

n we took e blue line bus`
den we gt dwn.
n we saw tis..skyride tingy n e sentosa luge.
hahas. n guess wad ?
we four went to take the skyride!!
hee. it was jus so hmm. romantics pple?
screamin in e air..
n sitting high up in e air ..
enjoying the breeze and scenery.. (:
hehe. we r romatics pple okays!

n we jus anyhw alight at a beach.
siloso beach` =P
nice place. nt alot of chiobus n shuaige . =/
hahas. nt as expected as e four of us tot..
bud e sea was. perfect! hee. super niice. super calm.
so we strolled along the siloso beach..
n we four sat on those.. hmm..
sun tanning chairs?
hee. kind of playin awae actually.
den den went to billabong shop walk walk.
den cont. walkin along siloso beach. =D
n we went onto the "nt so stable " bridge..
which was so shaky.. n nt alot of handles along too..
n we were on e sea~
hahas. n so .. we tried very very hard to balance..
while vin n hen.. kept shakin e ting..
den me n pj scream n scream. =X
n so we took pictures wiv those statues.!
hees.

n den..
we went to play games.
budd was a wrong place to go to..
cos we found out..
it was nt meant for us anywae.
it was for a family dae or sumthing de..
whr we will nid invitations cards..
bud den again..
its okie. till we found out we were nt allowed to plae dere.
its too late. we finished playin. n we gt our prizes already. =D

n so we went to c kids doin batman n barney stuff.
dey were simply CUTE .
those innocence in dem. hahas. =)
n den we walk on..
wanted to took a bus to underwater world de..
den we went up a bus..
n e uncle asked us..
' whr u wan to go ? den we said " underwater world "
n den he sae.. " underwater world jus across.. y nid take bus "
den e whole bus pple all looked at us..
den we were lk.. so malu.. >.<
den we faster faster go dwn e bus.
=.=" hahas. e four bendans in sentosa. =/

so went to underwater world.
kind of went..
bud we din. its so ex. $19.50 -.-
bud its okie. we still saw turtles.
hees! four turtles. jus nice.
one is me.. den e others.. henry.alvin.peijie. ahas.
after dat. greedy four of us. went to eat desserts.
kinda nice though me n pj anyhw mix those fruits. ^^
n we saw peacocks! hee. those peacocks whom we tot was eyeing at our food. =@

so.. after desserts.
we went to see merlion!
n it was niice ba..
strollin awae wiv hapy. (:
n we really walked alot yesterdae. more den 5km i suppose. =/
n we r back to the beach agains. ><>
so we walk..
n we were in palawan beach!
so cool e beach.
hahas.. deres tis super duper long bridge..
hangin in the air..
connected to the other side..
so we walked thru it.
n we stopped in e middle.
n we jus stand dere for lk quite long..
din even bother iif pple will have diff. time passing. =x
n we stare at the scenary.. hear e wind blow..
n e pple's laughter.
peaceful scene. ^_^
n it do helped me sort out lots of tots.. (:
den we went up the tall tall tower`
n pple help us took pic.
niicee one. (:

so dats e end of palawan beach till evenings.
n we went to hmm. 7-11 nxt.
ate mash potato! hahas. e scenerio is super cutes de.
four " kids " eating potato on e tram.. hee.
n den .. we went back to the beachy place agains! hahs.
din noe y . jus stucked at e beach area. hahax.
budd wells.. after being "lost"
we decided to go eat dinner!
hee. we ate at "kou fu "
niice. sort of same as e time whn we four ate at westmall.

okiies. done wiv everythings for e dae le.
finally. =)
as planned. we wanted to go beach strolling.
c stars n talk de!
hee. bud we wanted to go toilet..
so off we went.
n while walkin..
all four of us felt the place super freaky..
den dey were lk wanting to sae ghost stories..
hahax.n i guess. me n pj was frightened.
n we played wiv shadows! hahas. jus lk small kids do. =P

lalalas. n den we went back to our fav. bridge!
for a moment.
e bridge jus belonged to e four of us ..
no one else.
except us..
talkin.. enjoyin e sea breeze!
n so later. we headed home!
n by that time. my leg.
serious le. bled n bled. =.=
bud nvm. i gt plaster .. =)

bus was crowded.
super crowded.
bud we still gt our back seats.
n as usual we talk alot.
alot of our secrets. (:
hahas. n we gossips. =/
reached home going to 11 lidat le..
tiiredds. budd it was a super nice dae wiv dem!
simply love u three. hee.

my bloggs!

2006-08-23T18:27:00.000-07:00

halo.
blogg agains. hees.
hmm. practically nth happen tis few daes ba..
jus dat..
i kept tryin to make myself b okiie..

tryin to give up..
tryin to call u my bro..
n do every n everything i can..
so i can help myself give u up..
at 1st.. till jus nw..
i tot .. i can le..
i really shd b can le.. budd..
y tings seem lk..i canot.. ?

perhaps..my senior ask me de qn is correct de..
n all e other gals hu walk past me..
dey ask me..
" yuhui .. u ok nt ? "
" y u look so sadd.. "
at 1st i tot..perhaps dey gt it wrong or sumthing..
im happy ma.. gt smile gt everything..

budd it was till jus nw..
whn i saw.. him..
when i saw her..
den suddenly so many thoughts came to my mind..
n i jus feel so.. hart broken suddenlie.
lk for no reasons.. ?
cos i c dem together ma ?
>.<>
canot canot !! if wan give up.. how can lidat..

why ..is it until nw..i still canot giv u up..
y is it dat.. i still love u so much..
cos i fall too deep le..
cos.. i love sumone i shd nt love..

den im lk confuse le..
u really give up the two pple ma?
till now.. i still believe in wad u told me..
cos.. i believe its my trust in u ..
nvm ba.
i shd.. kan kaii de.

n my answer to whther i give up or not..
will jus b me myself noe ba.
n twinny shd noe.
i guess no other pple wld noe ba..
aniwae..noe le..also lidat.
noe le..wun help anything or improve anythings..

hee. nvms nvms.
i shd b can ba..
n i love "laogongs".. n e "laopos.."
hahas.

i hope i can ba.
as long as ya happie ..
everythings is enoughs. hee. (:

i love u ..

2006-08-19T17:33:00.000-07:00

after everything happened.
or rather since dat dae whn u told me ur decision.
i will respect it .
e promise n everythings ba.
i promise to keep my promise to u le.
nv will i break dem agains le..
i promise ba..

perhaps. u r important to me.
dat important till..
i canot afford to lose u .
budd i guess. nw..
my ans to hu i love..
or hu i like..
dun matters anymore ba.

n i wun..
i WUN ever fall for anyone le..
nv will i..
till e dae.. i can give up .. n fall for others..
or rather. i wun dare to.

wo ai ni..
zhen de.. hao ai hao ai ni.
bud i really dno wad i cn do...
nor find any other ways to ..
make myself stop lovin u animore le..

food n funfair

2006-08-19T16:44:00.000-07:00

halos!
hees. todae is a great dae. nice dae.
i shall always rmb de. 19th august.
hee. niice dae ! ^^

suppose to wake up at 6am de.
budd canot wake up. =/
yapps. i noe i pig pig.
oh ya. is piglet. =@
also sames. e family of pig pig. hahas.
so woke up at going to 7am le.
den i hurry ... tie hair..get chnge.. wash up.
n lastly my cookies! (:

e cookies which i spent almost..
e whole nite doin.
till close to 11pm+ le.
bud hai hao it succedded! hehe.
so i transfer dem properlie into e containers..
50+ into the super big de..
den ard 10 lidat into e pink container. ! (:
pink is for e mysterious person de !!
hee. finally i made for u le.
budd i guess i still owe u ba.
another one.
dun worries. i still rmb everythings de. hahax. =P

whn in sch.. i was jus so busy norrs.
busy melting e chocolate.. putting.. mixing..packing.
every n every things in e home econs kitchen.
hai haoos. gt three nine pple de helps!
hee. i noe i noe le! whn put together..
we still can be very united de.
though nt as united as two seven. bud its still some improvement le! (:
den ard goin to 10 dat time.
den i take out my pink container. n e super biggy de!
gave wq..yh..pw try .. n some 3/7 de..
hee. n dey saidd niice` whees. =P
den i gave e whole container to shu shian!
ask her help me give diana n joanne.
cos dey three share mahhs.
thkks sistas. hee. dey kept tellin me e cookie niice. =X
hehe. im proud of my cookies.!
cookies gt ting hua.
diin melt.

den den after dat.
we went on mobile selling of cookies.
den i pass e pink one to e sumone.
n den continue seliing.
selling is fun de.
cos gordon dey all super comicals.
cos of cookie. cn turn into fight . hahs. den me n pj were lk so LOL lors.
n still gt band de seniors.
hahas. keith n louis. (:
thks for buying. n ur bear bear balloon ! as well as ya swiits.
yaps. i noe. " patience! " xD

haha. after rounds n rounds of selling.
i was totally tiiredds.
so bought water n sushi.n hotdog. =D
den went to e band dere.
cos pj wann to collect her balloon.
den while waiting for louis hu is still makin
we two jus sat dwn dere wiv dem.
den we ate. hahas. kind of helpin to entertain him norrs.
bud half e time. i was tiiredds.
den after dat.

went to find wq n vin.
buggin dem. =x hahax.
den den went to find henry dey all.
n we all all played water bomb!!
splash n splash. super duper wets!
bud after dat end le.
me n pj sat dwn facin e field.
den .. still gt splash by pple norrs.
pple whom we duno de..
den henry also splash us.
den we were super wets le..
bud dats nt e end.
michelle took more water. n splash us. dots. =.=
den i was very very colld!! cos e wind blew n blew.
n my back kinda paiins. [ old le ! feng shi bing ! ]

den later. went up to staff rm dere find apple.
n den. pj left.
sho im alone.
den i walk n walk ard e school.
lk a zombie le..
super tiiredds by dat time.
den wanted to sit at e field dere.. budd..
dere was pple dere.
so i really dun dare go..
den i continued walkin.
till vin came. n den .. wq..
thks for kind of peii-ing me ba.

budd jus nw..
gt pple sae we sora lousy norrs.
den jack.iggie.n dey all..
went to challenge dem!
budd. sora still won.
gd job pples! hee. proud of you alls. =P
den later i went home le..
cos daddie cum pick me up mahs..
thks for fetching dadiie! hee. im jus dieing off soon le..
tiireddss.!! *yawnns.*

till nw.
i still love u .
jus cant seem to find a wae to stop..

broken hart

2006-08-17T22:13:00.000-07:00

hiie.
here to blog le!
hee. first ting is..i mus sae de.
before i forget!
my spinach grow le !! it grew !
hee. im jus so super happie abt it..
cos is my ipw plant. den im growin iit !
cos dey all all so busy. so i offered to grow for my grp!
since sundae till..tues.
den it grew!! hees.
at 1st im so worriedds.. cos it din grew..
den i stand beside e spinach pot..
den i tell e plant..
" spinach mus grow okiies! u can de.. ! "
hehehe. =X yaps. im lames. budd e least..nw it grew le norrs. (:

todae had chemistry SPA!
e actual de. o'levels cambridge exam.
i was nervous. kind of super nervous ba.
cos. kept tinkin if will do wrong ma..n etc..
bud hai hao. everything turned out to b quite well.
bud i guess i made mistakes.
which alot pple made too.
hopefully i will do well ! ^^

den after spa.
had bio supp. actualli is trial spa.
wiv tomatoes.cucumber.peanuts.banana.
ended slightly earlier den 0530.
so went dwn to chem lab.
den sat outside wiv vin n pj.
waited for wq n yh.
den went home together.
whn wq cum out.
den i told him..
"wq .. wo fa mei le..wait for u all veh long "
den pj nag.. cos she gt mosquito bites. den vin too. hahs.

den we went home ba!
bus was supers squeezy!
bud still okiies ba.
manage to squeezed in.

haisx. tis mornin.
at bus stop.
on bus..
everything seemed so cold.
i looked at him.
n i jus feel dat my hart..
suddenly break n break.
canot describe those feelins.
its jus..those..
even if u r sad.. bud whn u walk into sch..
u saw ur frens.. u still put a smile on ur face for dem.

tears feel lk droppin le.
bud i jus kept lookin at my chem file.
i kept tellin myself to.. smile..
canot cry.
so i din..
till nw..
i really duno..wad i can do ..
can dun lidat le ma ?
pls..

believe or i shan't ?

2006-08-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

halox.
todae was niice ba. (:
hees.
todae gastric better le ! yays!
e least. it din hurt dat much ba.
budd. its suppose to be better de..
if not after all those medication still nt okie..
den mummy saes nid to go visit e specialist doctor le.
bud hai haoo .. ! =P

earlie in e morning.
reached sch by bus.
hmmx. e bus was super cold norrs. till my hand stiff le !
den whn reached sch.
den first ting was.. find three seven pple.
hee. well done pples!
its wiv u all dat i find back those kind of warmth a class cld have..
e warmth n teamwork once 2/7 had.
bud aniwae. nice job bahs. (:
so me n pj lend a helpin hand to dem.
helped dem tie e papers together.label.stack.

todae lessons was nt badds.
bud i was tiireds.. yawns**
den durin lunch time.
while eatin.
suddenly gastrics hurts lk darn paiin.
duno why de..
it jus suddenly hurts as pain as yest. do..
so i faster ate medicine ..
n thus. late for co.. dots.
bud its kks i tinks.

n todae todae.
yibin left school le.
sobbs..
will miss her alot n alot de..
cos her dad wans her to transfer school
so before co ended ..she wanted to leave..
den we 6 dun wan let her go..
till joanne cried. diana.me.yuanting.shiling.shushian.
really cant bear her to leave..
while my tears drop while laughing..
i began to flash on..
wad happened those few daes..
flash n flash..
till i start to wonder..
is my tears cos i canot bear yibin ?
or is my tears cos.. i really feel so hurt ?

i saw tings i shldn't.
saw those personal msg.
saw e testimonials.
shd i continue believin in wad u tell me ma ?
dat everything will jus end..
JUST END BUT NOTHING MORE LE..
budd now..
i kept tellin myself..i shd trust u de..
cos.. i said before..
even if 1000 pple sae u lied.
as long as u sae u did not.
i still wld believe in u

till nw.
i still believe in u .
believe in e faiths..
believes..

those holy gangs.

2006-08-15T22:36:00.000-07:00

halos!
todae was kind of hmm.
duno wad kinda of dae was it ba.
kind of.. bad n nice too.

start frm bad tings first bahs..
sumthing super bad was.. my gastrics ba.
at first while goin sch it was still pain to the extend of bearable.
bud after flag raising..
while walkin back to class..
dat was e time whr i was..
kind of standin on e spot..n nt able to move..
den peijie was like.." u sure u okiie ? u nid me to piggy back u up ? "
den while climbin e stairs till 4th floor.
kinda canot le.. so i stood outside erms..kind of 3/6 class de outside..
budd it din helps.. so i jus limp back to class..
n in class i jus. lay flat on e table. =.= dots.

bud i guess till later it kinda better off le..
durin bio.. e paiin gt lessen abit.
so i of cos cld concentrate on lessons better.
during PE. my class had games as usual.
so i played. cos nt enough players.
so i onlie be catcher. cos i canot run. n i was nt wells.
bud later kinda played for awhile.. cos i was tempted. =X
hahs. netball netball ! ^^

bud later on..
din played le.
cos one ting was onlie nid five n i was startin to feel nt wells.
so i sat dwn. in e sun.
den later mr liew shouted to me ..
" go into the shade..later u faint "
den im lk..okok! i will de i will de ! =X

budd while pj was versus-ing those pples..
dey tried to trip n make her fall..
stared at her..
so pj fedup.pissed.
she took e ball n slammed.!
n after sch..
cos i noe dey wld stare n make comments if dey c im takin my med. out frm my bag.
so i alreadi tried to lk nt to let dem see.
budd dey still saw.
n dey jus prac. stare at me lk i've committed heinous crimes.
i really gt nth to sae le..
lidat de me...
will really explode one dae.. take a flag n surrender kks..
is dat wad all of u whole gang wan me to do ma ?
or wad mus i do..
to make u all stop all tis tings..

pj was lk..
" luckily u din plae.. if nt dey wld do back double "
i dun care le ba..
u all wan to make me till im hurt to any extend..
u all can do all u wan..
i am jus so hurt to the corres..tired till the extend..
i dun feel lk retialiating nor protecting myself le..

n e gd tings..
hmm. todae we three had funs ba. doin homeworks n studyin together.
hee` its nice de.
sistas. or my san gen cao . =D
thks alot gals.
wiv u all.. i feel much cheer up n nt so moody ba.

n two seven pple in 3/9.
hee. super hyper to volunteer for stuffs.!
good jobs guys. hees.
2/7 always is so..sporting !
we had pizzas.cereal cookies for food n fun fair!
n fish balls i guess.
hopefullie three nine will do a gd job. (:

nw..i guess im begining to lose alot of my frens le ba..
bud perhaps.. e least i still have..
peijie.diana.shushian.joanne.xueting.weiying.serwee.weiqing.yonghui.alvin.some of sora.apple.
wiv me ba. lidat de pillars shd b enough ba ?
thks pple. though u noe im moody.
none asked why.
bud all of u jus tried ur bes to cheer me up.
n kept nagging at me ..
ask me cnt drink cold water..
canot eat oily food..
mus eat light stuff n etc.
heex. though u're naggy. budd i appreciate it lots.

aniwae.
i will try every means n waes to cheer ups de.
no matter hw hard it is..
i will..
no matter in between hw u all try to make me hurt or cry..
i will hold on till e dae i canot..
bud for nw..
im still holdin onto iit..
cos i guess..
i shd forgive ba.. forgive n forget everything dat u all do to me..

to someone myserious outdere..
hope dat u r gettin on fiine ba..
n tings r gettin back to normal ba..
i really really miss those daes whr we talk alot..
craps alot..
sms alot..
all these will cum back ma ?
mus takkaire of urself !
tis few daes hardlie gt chnce to nag le..nor bug u ..
not i dun wan nag or bug..
bud jus.. dun dare to ba..
jus afraid lidat de me..will irritate u ..
as long as ya fine.
im suppose. everything shd be bahs.

gastrics jus hurtts.

2006-08-14T21:24:00.000-07:00

humphs.
i really really dun like my dae todae norrs.
jus feel lk go n bang wall.
n faiint off.

cos todae i was really really not feelins well.
i guess my class pple will noe ba.
esp. peijie.
cos she was wiv me e whole dae todae..
she very afraid..e nxt moment she leave frm me. i might jus fall on e floor.
yaps. it was my gastrics agains!
bad bad gastrics. humphs.
tis time round.. i wun deny le..
i wun deny anymore den im okiie.
cos..i noe very well.. i am very very not okays.
even till nw.. though i feel a lil better le..

cum to tink of it. i had gastrics since i was pri3
till now.. of cos im kinda used to the pain gastric wld giv me.
bud todae. was e 1st ever ever time.
i spent most of my time in e toilet todae i suppose.
cos i was really really feelin very very xin ku..
my tears was at e brim le..
so pj kinda gt a shock todae whn she saw me lidat..
n durin lunch. i ate med.
n den while walkin up e stairs to supp.
i kinda feel super nt feelins well.
kind of din even noe wad i was doin either.

jus felt very nauseous. feel lk vomiting or sumthing de.
n dizzy.
till e extend..
marvin hu was walkin in front of me..
came dwn e stairs to c if im okie ma..
sorrie pple! make u all gt a shock.
bud thks for holdin onto me jus nw. if nt i might jus collapse.
hee. u all de concern for me..is appreciated de.

n serwee.
peii me home todae.
thkks. its always nice to have u wiv me de!
hees. cos u will nv fail to bring me some smiles.
n while walkin out of sch gate . pj.yh.sw.
hee. serwee said dat we three are..
san gen cao !
ahahs. three stalks of grass !
hee. we'll stae together de. nv b aparts . cos whn deres us. deres prone to be high smiles!

bud aniwaes. thks to e other two stalks of grass.
n diana,joanne.shushian.
feel better wiv u all de naggs n cares le.
as well as apple ba.
budd todae.. haiisx.
as usual nors.
gt alot of stares frm other pple too.

i close to canot le..
really going to giv up le..
feel lk takin a white flag n tell e grp of dem.. i surrender le canns..
even im jus tightening e bottle cap of my medicine..
dey stared.
even jus in e hall wiv diana dey all.
e whole grp of dem stared as if i din noe dat dey r starin at me.
even D,J,SS cld c dat dey starin at me.
bud i jus told dem..
" nvms nvms.. its okiie.. "

perhaps.
one dae i wld really surrender ba..
u pple win le cn ma..
haiisx.
suddenlie.. im jus so nt used to it.
haven been tokin to him for days le..
i rmb once said before..
ni bu ke yi bu li wo..
cos lidat. i will box u hard hard..
n if u angry wiv me..
meant e sky dropped le..

bud nw..
i shd box u hard hard le ma ?
y do u seem so cold to me le..
n barely will we talk for more den 5 sentence..
haiisx.

oh ya.
n im in for obs le.
bud i din go for it.
i guess i've gt sum personal reasons of mine ba.

nw de me.
onlie feel unwell.
nt feelings well.
n it jus hurts alot.

sicks

2006-08-13T23:09:00.000-07:00

hii.
im here to blog le.
although nw de me..
is hardly well..
or rather..
for e whole of todae..
im feeling very sickk..
so sick ba..
really very very long nv lidat le..
even usual days gt gastrics.. after i swallow pill dwn..
it wld helps. n go awae afterdat.

bud todae..
i really feel lk doin one ting..
dat is sobbs sobbs..
humphs. i dun wan my gastric.
hmmx. probably my stomach ba.
as usual nors.i dun like to swallow pills de.
nor do i like to eat med !
u can sae im lk a little gal hu pouts at her mum cos she dun wan eat med.=X
haha. budd hai hao ba.
cos i noe.. its pain to the extreme till.
i even swallowed three pills before i went to doc.

one durin breakfast.
n two..durin lunch.
cos dats hw it usually works.
n e pill was.. super big ! i mean..to me ba.
so i tried very very hard..to swallow e pills dwn.
n i did it ! hee. cos i kept tellin myself tis..
" u wan to get well. so mus tink of e pills ! dey r tiny de. "
hahax. hmms..abit lame i noe.
bud. whn im at wits to force myself to swallow.
dats e onlie wae out. =D

n cos of my gastrics.
i din went for tuitions todae.
bud i went plaza for doc. instead.
sumthing amazing happened..
e doctor seem more lk a fortune teller den a doc?
cos is lidat de..
mr doc sae dat.. im kinda havin serious gastric pain tis time round.
so it actually hurts alot..
n den he added..
he sae.. " i suppose u r being very stress up wiv sumthing...n its bothering u alot .. n u r very sad cos of it..so it might make it worst. "
den i hear le..im lk so.. dots.
den i jus kept sayin.. " ohs. might be stress frm sch workk.. " =.=
hm. though half e time i noe..
it might b true.

actually my gastric was better in e afternoon le.
though it still hurts.
budd after ard..9+
it started hurting lk duno wad agains.!
so i took med.
in hope dat.. it will be better..
budd it diin.
till nw..
it still hurts alot.. =(

suan le.
i give up le..n i shall stop complainin abt it.
n i will go sch tmr.
budd. i promise le..
if it din get well..
den i will go home. if nt go sick bay.
yes! cos. dats e promise i give..for nt wanting an MC.
i rather i go sch.
hee. sick dun mean anythings.
sick means .. life still mus get goings.
smile still nids to b up on ur face.
n sick also means..
if ur fren is sick. u still nid to tc of dem!
hahax. to me. dats all abt bein sick ba.
so whn im sick. i still look normal i guess.

budd for tis few daes.
i guess. lesser smiles up.
or rather. erhs. no smiles up ba.
still nid more time ba.

frankly speakin.
nowadaes. im afraid of hw pple looked at me
in e sense of .. those pple hu noes abt wads going on.
its jus hw dey look at me.
my class gals..
those pple hu i guess noes wad happens.
n alot ba.
those gals.. hu noes wad happen.
perhaps i duno hw much dey noe..
bud.. im jus kinda afraid of dem
kind of... seein dem wld make me wanna avoid dem.
at 1st..i tot im tinkin too much myself..
to tink dat dey use diff looks on me.
bud even nw. pj realise dat..
dey looked at her diff too.

perhaps. we r tinkin too much ba.
or rather jus take it dat.
i assume too much ba.
budd. still. im afraid of dem.
hmm. jus lk a kids r afraid of monsters. =X
bud its okiie.
afraid of dem..den afraid ba.
i diin do anything wrong to dem can le.
im jus. me myself n I.

okays. hm. todae was kind of a dae same as yest.
moody still goes on.
bud ..
still i gt no waes to help myself..
sorriies strawberry.

for nw.
i guess i will go slps 1st ba.
kinda super nt feelin well.
gd niitex. n swiit dreams.

gastrics..

2006-08-13T01:41:00.000-07:00

halos.
todae. kinda a average dae bahs.
though nth really big happend.
as in .. those stuffs ba.

n todae was my chinese birthdae!
kinda forget all abt it le..
sighs. i tot i wld rmb once for tis yr.
in e end. i still forgotten abt it. =.=
i suppose..im really jus not in e right kind of mood..
to rmb such tings ba.

had piano as usual tis mornings.
n later left home at ard 3pm.
goings to lot one to meet dem.
den went to arcade.
called wq. n saw a grp of dem.
bud i guess wq was lk hmmx. bz bahs.
sho din really chao him.

den i stand outside arcade for kinda long
till he came.
bud after dat..
i jus walked awae frm outside arcade le ..
went to walk ard..
seein n seein winnie e pooh de bear bear...

den later went dwn to find him n others.
n i prac. jus walked behind dem.
hee. invisible lidat de.
den later peii calvin go home lidat ba..
n den saw qt,n,yz.
kinda chatted wiv qt ba..

den later took mrt wiv a huge bunch of pples.
thkks yh.. for ur mp3.
if nt i will b boreds to death.
bud i guess.
half e time.
i hug to the pole
n was deep in my tots.
=.=

n truthfully speakin..
i was super nt feelings well todae.
so while i cn. i jus kept quiet.
n plus e fact dat..
im jus feelin so dots..
im havin extra or terriblie gastric paiins.
my dinner was french fries onlie.

till now.
i feel veh nauseous.
n my gastric hurts like nobody's business.
sobbs..
since a long time will lidat lerrs..

i jus hope..
dat everything will end soon..

moody!

2006-08-11T22:25:00.000-07:00

haiisx.
y todae de me..still so moody.
walk ard lk nth bud a zombie.
as wad i told pj.
nw de me..
looked lk a moron.idiot.dumbbed.!

she understands ba.
tings im nt suppose to sae.i wun sae to her.
n tings shes nt suppose to sae. she wun sae out to me.
bud one ting she noes.
im perfectly moody to e corres.
prac. nt talkin to anyone in sch todae.
except jus those usual pple ba.

n cos im jus so moody dat.
im perfectly blur.
n i dun understand y m i so moody...
my hart seemed to have a large big hole.
which..no matter hw u try to mend it..it jus.. remained open.
n nt onlie e hole remains hollow.
budd it hurts.
till e extend.. i told twiny.
i feel lk dieing ..
bud her onlie reply was.. " u r sensible enough..i noe.. "

sumhw.
perhaps for everything dat happened.
my hart has tis super duper big hole .
dat it nv closed up ba.
pj knew my tears drop.
budd it was her hu encourage me to cry de.
cos..she noe..
me being too strong sumtimes..
cant even cry. n i wld.. keep every sorrows frm her.
i asked her.. to scold me ba..
scold me harsh enough..
make me cry once n for all le..
dun make my tears drop n drop each time le..
no point at all ma..
bud she jus said. i duno hw to scold u .

n xueting,thks for acc me whn pj was at meeting.
cos..pj din allow me to be alone..
she said to me..
" if i leave u alone.. i wonder wad wld happen to u whn i cum back again"
i even offered to help her to help her settle her tings for tmr..
cos she has tuition up to 7.
though half e time i stopped.
i halted.
cos i dun dare. i was afraid dat..
seeing him..wld make my tears dropp.
so while i talked to him.
i hold n hold..
till i walked awae..
n my tears drop.
budd i wipe it off. n walked awae.

sumtimes..i wonder.
lidat de me.. is call strong ?
or m i acting strong ?
i wan neither.
i rather i be weak.
n cry out loud.

everyone asked me..
u sure u are okie.
n i jus said..
ya. i am..

i guess..
i wun fall for another person le.
cos. deres onlie u .
jus take it as im dumb to do dat.
or rather..
i jus canot ba.

i love u ..

2006-08-10T10:28:00.000-07:00

my blog.
is practically no ones readin de.
din really wanted pple to noe abt my life.
so deres password to it.
means in short.
prac. no ones read iit.

i duno wad i can sae le..
hurt.sad.upset.lost.

u wan to try to be in my shoes ma..
wad if one dae.
sumone u love alot.
sumone u trust alot..even trust to the extend no matter wad dey do,even if its wrong. u will still trust n believe dat dey have deir own reasons for doin dat.
bud sumone u trust so much.
dun even giv u any bit of trust.
nor trust u back.

u sae u trust me.
budd..
trust me is lidat de ma ?
y is it dat wadever i try to explain to u ..
u wun seem to wan to hear nor listen to my explanation..

i will keep sayin is my fault.
becos i wan u to noe..
i understand dat all tis while..
pple scold u n everythings.. is nt ur fault onlie.
becos i also have my fault.
nt becos i wan to rake the past n pin point hu is wrong.
i noe le.. my protecting. my help to u in e past.
is my fault.
cos it will onlie make it worst.
i understand le!!! i really do le..

everyone make mistake.
my mistake was..tellin out my sorrows to e three.
budd. i noe im at fault le..
u forgive me can ma..
is u hu teach me nt to rake up e past..
n to forgive n forget..
i really duno wad i can do ..

even whn i tell u i diin break ur promise..
i DIN ! i realli din
wo zhen de mei you..
hw cn i make u believe dat..
hw cn i make u trust me again..
n not treat me lidat le..
i beg u ..
jiu suan shi wo qiu ni..
dun lidat to me le..

my motivator..my listener..my counsellor..
hw can i be..
or wad else can i do..
u tell me ba..
lidat de me..hanging in e air lidat..
duno wad i cn do..

cos of my promise to u .
i keep all sorrows to myself.
cos its my promise to u .
dun even dare to talk to pj.. nor talk to anyone le.

hw can u nt trust me so easily..
wad other pple sae u will believe..
lidat is call believin in me ma..
den wad r my trust for u for..
wad r those faith i have in u ..

huangyuhui!
y m i do dumb. nth bud dumb n a moron and idiot.
y cant i even handle such tings properly!
i really feel very very tong ku..
very very hurt .
though i noe. u dun feel any much better

i have already.
forgive. forget.
n my protection of her.
nt becos i wan to b hurt again.
cos i believe everyone makes mistake.
n my believin in her.. is cos..
frm e dae onwards.
i believe dat u r my brother.
i told u before..no matter hu u chose.. wadever u do..
i will support u . so no matter wad happens.
i will trust her.believe in her..
lidat de me..gt wrong ma?

i tried to lighten ur burden. nt cos of e concept of i wan to help u .
bud i wan to help to end tis problem,
tis prob is nt onlie urs alone. bud us.
another head tinkin wad to solve it. better den one head.
bud till tue.
whn i told u i gt faith in u .
n i promise to let u settle on ur own..
i really did not help anymore le.

all this n all this..
hw can i bring it across to u ..
whn i haven even start sayin..
u will sae wad.. i am weida or sumthing.
i am nt weida. nor m i tryin to claim credits.
i am jus tryin to explain to u ..
n i kept tryin hard to make u believe dat i diin break ur promise!!!

other pple dun believe in me..nvm..
bud u dun believe me..
hw can i...

tears seemd to overflow each time, i talk to u
even nt talkin to u .
doin hw alone.
i cn wet my own paper.

i am really nth bud a dumb strawstraw!

my trust for u .

2006-08-09T14:27:00.000-07:00

hii.
yesterdae was a nice dae.
cos hapy went out le.
n we do had fun.
cos as said. its an outing. (:

1st was .wantin to eat pizza hut de.
den nt yets open.
guess. we were too earlie ba.
den pizza hut was still not opened.
so we went to hmmx. queue for sweet talk.
budd e queue was lk so super long..
so we queue half wae.. den we went up to pizza hut le.

n we ate!
hees. total was $40.20 !
ex norrs. everyone of us paid $10.
den later we went to sweet talk agains!
ahahs. to buy water .

so after sweet talk.
we went upstairs!
buy a common ting. which e four of us have!
heys. mus use okiie! my sis n my bro. (:
n place it wiv u all everywhr u all are!
hmmx. probably. wherever u all studies ba. =P

n after dat we went to take neos!
hees. tats super niice de.
n we took those siiting on e chair kind de.
den post n post!
n hapy de zhao pai dong zuo.
is twist! hees.
twist more pples! =D
n it was niice.

den after dat.
went popular to buy clip file.
n we took lrt hommes!
after lrt.
den e person peii me wait for bus.
hees. thkks norrs.
i hav faith in u .
so mus jia yous!

n for todae.
all i wan to sae is jus..
my trust for u ..
is more den wad i trust other pple.
no matter wad other pple cn tell me, as long as wad u tell me..
i will still believe in u n not the others..
perhaps dats wad dey call.
e person whom u hav faith in ba.
my faith for u . n my believe for u .
is sumthing to keep me going all tis while.

cos the least.
i am comfort to noe dat.
i have sumone ard me to believe in me e wae as i believe in him.

bud tis morning happened de tings.
really make me very afraid.
becos. i am afraid dat..
after all this..
will u still believe in me as wad u told me yesterdae ma?
will ma? or rather..
forgive me for the tings dat im in e wrong ?

nw is nt the time to find faults at.
cos i noe.
i guess. e three of us has faults.
bud whose faults is nt impt nw.
cos past is past.
impt de is..
deres an ending to all these..
n yesterdae.. whn i tell u ..deres ending..
dere is really an ending le..

sorry for everything dat happend.
n if any pt of time.
i made u disappointed in me.
i onlie wan to sae is..
my promise to u . will nv b broken.
cos e person i promise de. is nt to others..bud to u .
so i will kip it no matter if it cost me anything to do dat..
i guess..dats e onlie ting i wan to tell u ba.

n for everything dat has happened.
i understand le.
n i finallie noe le..
cos u explained it to me..

faintedds.

2006-08-07T18:43:00.000-07:00

todae was nt at all a nice dae.
cos tis few daes.
im jus..
either havin super duper paiins headache.
if nt gastric.
if nt coughs.
n todae nerhs. durin english lesson.
whn i stand up.
i completely black out n fainted.
luckily pj beside me.
she held onto me. den prevented me frm hitting right straight onto the floor semi-consciously.

n she quickly take chair ask me sit dwn.
n kept forcin me to drink lots of water.
n lie dwn on e table.
onlie after dat.. den i felt a lil better.
till nw.. im still havin spliting headache .
pains till.. really nth to say.

thks twiny. if nt for u .
i might land in the hospi nw or wadever.

hopefully tmr will b a nice dae.
n may my hopes cum true.
if it dun.
den it dun ba.
aniwae. its nt the 1st time..my hopes r being dash..
so wads e diff.

hurtts.

2006-08-07T18:00:00.000-07:00

sometimes de me.
i feel lk im bluffin myself for everything.
cos of him. i cn bluff myself.
even whn i was hurt to the corre.
no one noes.
no tears droppin, dun mean im nt hurt.
dun mean im nt moody nor sad.
dun mean i am completely fine .

is only my own choice of nt to cry.
my choice of nt to look sad to e others.
becos im always afraid. if he noes hw hurt i am
he might feel even worst. even reproach himself more.
i dun wan..

nw.. e situation is as complicated as.. i dun even noe hw to describe.
i guess i've gt fault too.
sometimes i jus cant help bud keep reproachin myself.
if i giv up. if i leave.
perhaps i will help to make e burden of his to seem more light.
nw de me..

im tiiredd le.
even if im nt tiired..
i seem lk one wiv alot of wounds frm all e hurts.
its the wound inside.
try to be hurt by pple. hurtin n hurtin . on n on.
one wound nt even yet recover.
u r hurt again.
hurt by the person u trust so much.
hurt by no rhyme or reason.

tis my life ma?
being kind gt wrong ma?
canot give up sumone wrong too ma?
y cant i just have once where i cn.
believe dat miracles,hopes.my wish will cum true?
each n every time de me.
will onlie keep telling myself.. those r rubbish.
becos everytime i start to believe in dem abit.
dey r dash again..
y take dem awae frm me whn u noe u r takin dem awae frm me..

nw all i wan to do is.
lighten his burden.
even if it means to cost me everything.
as long as.. he is happy.
he is nt being pulled in the middle.
i really dun wan him to be sandwich in btw.
bud wad cn i do ?
teach me ma pple?
so wad if i noeing his ans..
his ans is fake de again ma?
y cant i jus once believe in his ans whole heartedly..
nt cos i dun wan to believe.
budd im afraid..
e ans is jus nth bud a fake one..

i really feel very..
dun even feel lk tokin to any single person.
tears drop n drop.
cos i canot le..
hw she hurt me.. every n everything.
i always hold my tears. cos i keep sayin..
i mus b strong .. i must. canot cry..
even hw hurt .. i also mus face it.. acccept it n smile to others.
after tokin to my kor..
thks for tellin me. i realli appreciate it alot.
n cos gt u . i tink i cn be stronger ba. thkks.
sry. i cry le.. cos.. really canot hold le..

any means of me leavin u .
wld exchnge for a smile.
i wld.

i love hiim.

2006-08-05T15:18:00.000-07:00

todae was a nice nice dae.
kinda my best dae among all tis while.

wakes up at 7.30am lidat.
den went to prepare n dollin for pianos.
den ard..9.15 left hse.
n pianos todae was niice . cos cos i played the greensleeves or sumthing.
hahax. kinda a touching song.

den after piano.
hurry chiongs to dentist at paragon.
wiv mummy n sis.
n todae my braces colour is..
red n white ! cos wan national dae le.
hahas. so had e same colour wiv pj n wq ! ahahs.

after dentist. my tooth hurts abit ba.
bud is hai hao.
den later went for lunch at para too.
which den afterdat.

i hurry hurry dwn to petir okiie!
jus to find dem n dat person.
on e bus. talkkin to e person askin hw to get dere.
n den i alight at the cc bus stop.
budd e person nt dere yet.
so i call him. den i tell dem. mus cum find me.
i will get lost de ! hahax.

denn so lol de. in e end i found dem le ! heehee.
n dey all funny funny de.
duno wad dey up to norrs.
kept askin me to sit dwn.
in btw dem. den i dun wan.
dey look at me wiv fierce fierce look.
bad bad!hahas. bud nvms. hees. =D+

den i missed a 75. purposely de.
cos. diin wan to go home so earlie.
den sat dwn. n while stanndin.
talkked to him.
kinda had a super nice talk.
heehee. hmm.
mysterious ! i wan to talk to u on and on.
nv endingly.
hahax.

budd i forget to do sumthiing todae!
dat is to beat .
nvms. i still gt other chnces de.
hmm. mayb on 8th august ! hahas. shall beat n beat. =X
thks for waiting e bus wiv me.
for chattin wiv me.
even on e bus n in e bus stop . by the pillars or e stairs. hees.

m i bendans ma? or e truely de sha gua ?
bein bullied by her. in e end i still cn take it as if nth happen.
n forgive her for all shes done.
i guess perhaps. deres no nid to hold grudges.
nor a nid to hate n b angry wiv sumone whom i used to trust alot ba.
cos i tinkks. as long as deres chnce. dere shd b okiie de!
n ..hatin sumone n being angry wiv sumone
is so tirings. so y shd i ! hahax.
nt healthy de ! i noe myself too.
so, mus smile ! mus stae happie n be strongs. canot cry le !
okayys straw straw!! ^_^

time flies ! 13 mths le.
still. i seemd dumb. =.=

2006-08-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

todae was a nice nice dae.
kinda my best dae among all tis while.

wakes up at 7.30am lidat.
den went to prepare n dollin for pianos.
den ard..9.15 left hse.
n pianos todae was niice . cos cos i played the greensleeves or sumthing.
hahax. kinda a touching song.

den after piano.
hurry chiongs to dentist at paragon.
wiv mummy n sis.
n todae my braces colour is..
red n white ! cos wan national dae le.
hahas. so had e same colour wiv pj n wq ! ahahs.

after dentist. my tooth hurts abit ba.
bud is hai hao.
den later went for lunch at para too.
which den afterdat.

i hurry hurry dwn to petir okiie!
jus to find dem n dat person.
on e bus. talkkin to e person askin hw to get dere.
n den i alight at the cc bus stop.
budd e person nt dere yet.
so i call him. den i tell dem. mus cum find me.
i will get lost de ! hahax.

denn so lol de. in e end i found dem le ! heehee.
n dey all funny funny de.
duno wad dey up to norrs.
kept askin me to sit dwn.
in btw dem. den i dun wan.
dey look at me wiv fierce fierce look.
bad bad!hahas. bud nvms. hees. =D+

den i missed a 75. purposely de.
cos. diin wan to go home so earlie.
den sat dwn. n while stanndin.
talkked to him.
kinda had a super nice talk.
heehee. hmm.
mysterious ! i wan to talk to u on and on.
nv endingly.
hahax.

budd i forget to do sumthiing todae!
dat is to beat .
nvms. i still gt other chnces de.
hmm. mayb on 8th august ! hahas. shall beat n beat. =X
thks for waiting e bus wiv me.
for chattin wiv me.
even on e bus n in e bus stop . by the pillars or e stairs. hees.

m i bendans ma? or e truely de sha gua ?
bein bullied by her. in e end i still cn take it as if nth happen.
n forgive her for all shes done.
i guess perhaps. deres no nid to hold grudges.
nor a nid to hate n b angry wiv sumone whom i used to trust alot ba.
cos i tinkks. as long as deres chnce. dere shd b okiie de!
n ..hatin sumone n being angry wiv sumone
is so tirings. so y shd i ! hahax.
nt healthy de ! i noe myself too.
so, mus smile ! mus stae happie n be strongs. canot cry le !
okayys straw straw!! ^_^

time flies ! 13 mths le.
still. i seemd dumb. =.=

pissed by dat stupid idiotic her.

2006-08-04T18:27:00.000-07:00

hmm.
tis few daes.
nice n bad ba.

thurs. was nice.
cos played bball wiv dem.
2.30 to 4.30 - bball
4.30-5.30 - bio spa
5.30-6.00 - bball
hmm. tks for teachin bball !
heehee. ya teachin is gd le ! =D

budd yesterdae was badd.
cos. of someone.
dun ever ever make use of the trust i have for u .
u have gt absoulutely no rights to do dat!
everyone might have e rights.
bud u dun at all.
i trust u alot. becos i told myself to believe in u .
yaps. perhaps im naive.
too naive to trust u .
n even speak up for u whn other pple sae bad abt u !

todae.
those stares in e canteen.
those words u spoke las nite/las evening.
those every n every tings since half a yr ago.
cn i jus throw dem awae ma?
act as if nth happen.
n smile as if i din place any trust in u .
cos ur actions.
ur words.
simply hurt me alot .

its okiie.
perhaps i shd b grateful dat.
thru tis. i noe..
i've gt alot of super frens wiv me ! heehee.
hmm. pj.wq.vin.yh.D.ss.J.sora.RC . serrwee.eve. n etc etc
thankew pple.
wivout u all ard. my tears will sure drop out.
n i will sure go madds de.

for nw.
i tot over le.
as long as i did no wrong to her.
my conscience is clear. its alriites.
hees. i still wan to be e happy straw straw !
i still wan to enjoy myself on 8/8 n 28/8 !
budd for nw. i cant ba. cant smile. cant anything.

hmm. to sumone mysterious.
thks for everything dat u've done.
i really appreciate it.
n sorrie for makin u dan xiin !
n also canot make me worry okays! hees. =)

sora!

2006-08-01T21:02:00.000-07:00

heehee.
teach u all a equation.
hahas.
wypy+hapy=happy!
e super duper cutes de equation. xD

hmm. yesterday. went home at 4.30+ bahs.
did ipw wiv my grp members till 4.15.
den pj went home.
cos she gt tuitions.so her papa fetch her.
den left me onlie.
so waited for dems. hees.
n finally dey okie le. so went home together ba. (:

todae was niice de!
hees. in e mornins. as usual wiv mon or other daes.
went canteen wiv those three.
hahs. n we talk too.
everymorning. like nv ending ! hees.
den ate wedges! hahs. din noe why. it seem lk so niice.
cos pj tempted me nors =X

hees. den later durin lessons.
i was like super tiiredds.
too tired le ba.. study n study.
never ending de. =.=
except for pe !
hahas. whn dere peijie.serwee n yuhui !
dere can nv be failed of laughter!
heehee. its like. we cn plae till madds. =X

hmmx. todae. stae back till 5.30
den afterdat went bball court find wq n yh wiv vin.
den later c dem bball.
which later hen came along too.
den i watch sora play bball ! hees.

super niice.
u all played well ! =D
n todae nerhs. wq joined sora le !
sora no.5 ! weets. xD

hees.den i left 1st.
so i left a note for dem before i left.hahax.
hm. den. 184 so long
become i met dem agains! hahas. so ke aiis. hees.

heehee. im lookin forward to eight of august. 8/8/2006
hyper.enthu le !
hahax. hopefully we will have a nice day bahs. (:

i love sora.
i love hapy.
i love wypy .
hehe. ^_^
27 daes morees. =D

wq n yh ! ah hahs.

2006-07-27T22:40:00.000-07:00

halos.
heehee. long time din blog le.
ever since westcoast!
hahas. bud west coast really was fun.
till nw i wld nv ever forget! hees. cos deres hapy!

hmm. tis few daes. din blog alot le.
cos was really super duper busy.
sorrie pple hu reads my blog.
bud iif im free. i wld definitely update!
goings to obs. =) bud nw nt really confirm yets.
budd. do really hope to go. to get an experience dere ba.
hopefully i dun get nightmares.ahahs.

tis few daes.
i jus wan to say.
weiqing n yonghui ! really is super niice de.
hahas. mon. i waited for dem. n e other person. all e wae till 5.30 !
den tues. wq waited for us.
so went home together. n it was super comicals throughout.
WED ! i was jus one word . busy !
so busy wiv co tings..
which i really dun hav e time to practice on my instrue till co was like ending le.
thanks to my dearest sister! haha. for helpin me. =D

den todae todae.
in e morning.
chattin wiv yh n wq n pj in canteen.
had bio tests. n emath.
overall still nt bad. hees.
n had bio test all e wae till. 5pm+
it was raining so heavily !
dat the thunder so louudss !
so while doin test de me was half e time coverin my ears ups. =X

nn wq n yh waited for us!
hehes. den we went void deck. talk talk.
hees. niice tokin wiv dem always.
n later 3/6 release le.
so go home togethers! n we walk in e rain
hees. fun funs!

perhaps i tink too much le ba.
or shd i trust my zhi jue ?
i really duno.
jus so confused.
n sumhw feel down.

HAPY

2006-07-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

simply love.
22nd July 2006`

WALK A JOG AT WEST COAST. (:

in e mornings. woke up lk usual dae. gt prepared.
den took 184 to bp interchange.
wanting to meet hen.vin.pj
deres others too.
den while alighting 184. dere came hen and vin.
so walk together wiv dem towards pj.
while waiting for bus. we four practically did nths. ^^

up on 176.
was comicals de.
me n pj sat opp. hen.vin.
den we sumhw did lip readings? or sum actions.
cos. xues was in btw us.
den very difficult to talk. hahas.
n dey tried to take pic of us.
so me n pj took back. hees.
lames us. (:
n we four listened to mp3.

dwn on 176. to west coast.
i was bugging hen n vin.
cos i wan go play playgrounds. pj too !
hahas. den we went for awhiles.
den dey went for spider webs.
it was lk kinda scary to climb.
budd. dere was a gurl. hu was pro. she climb darn fast.
steady de. (:

lata we played on sand!
splash here splash dere.
until our shoes.shirts.hair.
whole ting sandy. =.=
hahas. bud it was fun actualli.
hees. we four played lots n lots. (:
played on playgrounds. sands. running ard. walkin on sand. strollins.
den later walkathon startin le.
den gt the "touch dance "
whees! we four danced okayys! hahas.
n we really dance nicely. =X

den walkathon finish.
at 1st is i sat under e tree. den came pj
n den came hen and vin.
hahas. was lookin at pple fly kites. n chattins awae. =P
den later. we went duno do wad le. hahas.
n hen. gt second! weets. nice one.
so went up took price. n we claps for hiims. =)
den lata lata. we go . take goody bags. eat swiits.
nn i found strawberry pocky ! hees. yippes.
n tks for givin me. those lollipops lk swiits.

den den.
we four gt asked by the four million smiles tingy.
which means e person took our photo.
n the photo of e four of us.
is goings to b publish to singapore!
oh mys!hees. n whn we 4 noe le.
we were lk. oh no! den omgs.
bud wells. we din bother abt dat too much either. ^_^

den lata going westmall wiv hen.vin.pj.xues.pangwee.
bud dey walk behind.
so we four walk together.
den we revenge! =X
make vin sand. hu ask him nors.
spray us so mani sand before walkathon. bleahhs!
den on 176 to westmall.
i sat beside henry beside xuewei.
pj sat beside vin beside xuewen.
lolx. n it was funs.
hees. dun wan rite y was fun le. too longs.*

while walkin towards westmall.
oh wells. being zilians.
e four of us took photos.
hees. =D
nice nice okayys! hahas. =X
den went to eat.
we four ate together.
oh mys. finally. ate. =)
eating.toking. funs.

n we went walk walk.
den went swit talk.
me n pj help dem order.
chocolate oreo wiv apple topping
n bandung pearl.
den we went home.
hmm. funs too.
abt the bell bell tingy on e bus.
n e bus stops. xD

alrites! dat shd b a sumary of todaes activity
hees. hapy! go out sumdae agains kkaes!
we shall plae lk we do todae.
hahas.
its jus simply fun wiv u all.
n my life is nv complete wivout u all ! =P
n wh

2006-07-22T22:09:00.000-07:00

19.7. to 20.7.2006.
had china exchange programme.
it was kind of interesting bahs.
hees.
den my partner was bian chao.
pj de was he long.
dey were sumhw kinda comicals.
which sumtimes me n pj canot stands dems. =.=
hees. bud aniwae.
bianchao!
tks for ur rabbit bear.
ur necklace.
n all e tings u taught me. (:
i've enjoyed quite abit wiv u alls.

n for e past few daes.
tks to wq n yh n vin.
lolx. we were lk playin mads.
hahas. in band room.
etc etc. goings homes.. =)
thks for all e funs brothers. n my sistas.

sora.

2006-07-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

=(
my braces hurts alot.
for no rhymes or reason.
it jus hurt. after doc. chnge the rubber band.
n realli lk. canot eat hard food agains!
omgs omgs! canot eat pocky as scheduled le.
sobs sobs.

todae went pianos.
hees. as usuals. i realli jus love pianos lots n lots.
n i kip playin on e piano till i went blur.
hees` guess din had enough sleeps.
i tot treble clef was bass clef.
n bass clef was treble clef!
hahas. den my cher was lk laughing lor. =/

den den after dat went dentist.
which was badds.!
bud i chnged colour.
hot pink n lime green.
its jus darn brights. which my mum n dad saes.
"ur teeth so colourful "
hahas.! went lunchin wiv daddie n mummie
jap. food! lalalas. simply love it. ^^

den lata went shoppins wiv mummie.
cos i wanted to buy the present for e china students.
cos mus xchnge mahs.
so i din noe if it is a boi or gal.
so i bought a parker pen! ((:
hope e whoever hu gets it will lk it bahs.

mm. todae is sora's second offical trainings bahs!
hees.
alvin hurt his hand.
iggie sprained his leg.
n sum tings went on.
mm..sora ! mus take gd care of urself okayys!
n smile morres whn bball. (:

mi mi !

2006-07-13T20:10:00.000-07:00

todae.
was fun ba.
kind of okaee.
startin was nervous cos of orals.
worried dat it might be tuft.
bud hai hao ba.
it turned out to be quite alrites.
though i was moody. yes i was.
sry. bud sumhw..sumtimes...
i guess i jus nid more times bahs.
i tot..i was kind of quite jian qiang le.
cos. i even manage to giv pple a smile whn i was being hurt.

well. suan le ba.
in IT room 1 todae.
simply played alot wiv hmt pple.
pples.! concentration games.
hahas. it was to keep us from being nervous..
n durin orals was fine ba.
the teacher was smiling to me throughout!
n so do i ! hees. smile n smile.
smiling calms u dwn! realli. dats fer me. ^^

after oral. went to find wq.
he was in band room
hees. den later he sae wait for vin.
so me n pj go library do hw 1st..
den later wq n vin wait for us in canteen.
hehe. u all simply rockks nerhhs!
hees. esp. yh n wq.
thks fer lettin me buggin u all ?hahas.

bud aniwae.
simply love u all lots! hehe.

for e past few wks.
ever since was sora manager.
i kept tinking abt wad i cn do for sora.
so i tot n tot..
n finallie while i was walkin home todae.
i thought of it lerhhs!
bud shall nt sae it out.
later any sora de pple read tis le..
den canot le..cos its mi mi !
hahas. =P

n todae.
sora went bballs agains! (:

hurtts.

2006-07-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

11th july 2006
wasn't a gd dae. nor a nice one.
in fact. it was a hurting one.
din noe hw to put it to words.
bud sumhw.
i was abit disappointed.

disappointed cos of no hopes came out.
perhaps cos.
frm e start. i din even tot of hopes ba?
hmm. so wasn't realli dat hurt cos of hamhams.
bud onlie a lil bit bahs.

bud in fact. was disappointed cos.
i knew u understand me bud u diin.
motivator n bro. tis two words. might jus b any alphabets to u .
bud. to me. dey r impt.
cos i realli trust n believe alot in it.
yaps. i might b dumb.
bud perhaps. me being dumb cums wiv alot of reasons to believe in motivator/brother.
bud of cos. i realli do understand y u did all those.

in e end.
i diin hated u . nor was angry wiv u .
bud. perhaps thanks fer lettin me realise.
n remind me dat.
yaps! yuhui is tirred le.

hmm.though kind of feeling a lil better den tue nite.
bud still deres a lil wound here n dere ba.
whn im dwn. whn im hurt.
thankew twinny. alvin.wq.yh . serwee . !
hmm.wivout u 5 . i might jus die off .
really ba. for a moment.
i was really hurt alot. dat i din even wan to do anything else.
of cos. still gt calvin ba. hees. tks.
pples. esp. e 5 . thankew for acc me strolling..
kip tryin hard to make me smile.
n every min n every sec askin me if im okie anot.
esp. whn i was super pales on wed.

nw de me.
i duno iif me looking okie to others..
is right de ma..
whn i smiled n laughed todae in sch.
i feel more afraid.
cos i scared. iif i really still sad cos of hurt..i wun even noe.
bud.i promised le. i will try my bes to smile n b happie no matter wad happens.
so..u also mus kip ya promise okiie! (:

moody.

2006-07-10T21:14:00.000-07:00

halos.
heehee.
ems. todae was a nice plus bad dae?
hm. start wiv e bad ting 1st bahs.

tis mornins.
it was rainins! =(
i dun lk rainings. unless its mayb after school ? hees`
cos rainin den canot sit in parade sq le !
sittin in parade sq seems to b a joy.
hahas. cos. cn see lots of smiles early in e mornin.
n deir smiles realli lk so niice de. bright big smiles. ^^
heehee. n i suppose dey must be happie!

went void deck find twinny as usuals.
den went up class together. wells. half e time we were crappins as usual.
hahas. canot stop crappins wiv her lors.
is either shes lame. if nt i am lame.
den we go find wq n yh. hahas. bud dey nt free. so din bother dem le.
den we chatted outside our class till cher chased us in. xD

at dat time. was still feelin okays bahs.
thou i was a lil moody todae.
bud after recess was like totally... dots.
perhaps is i ownself sensitive bahs.
or erms. as wad vin n twiny sae de. jealous ?
bud i suppose i gt no rights to jealous .
hees. budd aniwae. was realli feelings super dwn todae.
kind of smiled. bud nt realli smiled till those extend.
den in class.
half e time,i was jus so moody.

den lunch time.
eat wiv yonghui.weiqing n peijie.
hees! wq n yh wan suii !
hahas. peii us eat.
thou dey were lk nt hungry ?
hahas. den came henry!
heehee.
den den. yh n wq were jus super niice lo.
hees. wiivout dem everydae. me n pj gonna be borreds n boreds.

nw..sora shd b training ba.
bud duno if end le ma!
hees. bud sora is hardworkings!
jia yous lerrhs. (:

okie ba.
dats all abt blogging fer todae.
hope tmr will b a sunny dae.
n tmr shall b a smiley dae whrby ms smiley smiles all dae long!
heehee.

silly yuhui.

2006-07-08T11:35:00.000-07:00

haiis;

sumhw.
i really duno whr i shd walk.
whr i shd leave my footsteps at.
or rather whr i shd run to.

everywhere i walk.
everywhere i go and wadever tings i thought of.
i jus cant seemed to run awae frm e fact to rmb dat.
after all tis mths.
after everythings dat had happend.
i jus canot stopped myself frm knockin into u .
n be remembered dat ..
i still love u .

nt i din wan to cherish e fact that i love u still.
bud i jus canot.
iif i cherish. end up. im e one hu gets hurt agains.
cos. im e onlie one hu is cherishin.
mahs sistas said im silly.
yaps. i agree. silly enuff .

do nt. giv me hopes whn dey r nt meant to b hopes.
dun show me e road to miracles whn i do nt hav dems.
lidat de u . onlie will end up makin me hurt more.
iif deres realli hopes. realli miracles.
den show me e road to it.
dun make me walk in it lk a silly gurl.
cos i wld onli kip believin in.
im a gurl hu wld nt see hopes nor miracles frm u .

glttery us

2006-07-07T00:12:00.000-07:00

hahas. todae was such a niice dae. (:
i simply love it.
though early in e morning. i was sians diao.
cos i was sad. fer sum reasons.
cos of e word. love. =.=
okays. bud lata after 9.45am.
my dae brighten up alots!

cos of alan.yuhui.peijie.muxing.serwee!
hees. pple. i simply love u all.
nxt time we 5 shall go out together. (:

1. had breakfast cum lunch wiv dem. in sch canteen.
2. i went to find diana took tings frm her.
3.went staff room help cher take e stuffs.
4.hees.den sit at the void deck facin e field..
den we chatts.. till 11am
5.den on e bus. played wiv alan n pj. n mx. hees.

6. set up the tings asap.wiv e curtains. n cos of me n alan's brilliant idea. made e ting lk worst lor. bud lata cos of our " brillliant " idea again. we made it looked niice. hahahs!
7.learnt hw to present wiv alan. cox pj n sw. den sq and mx.
8.we present to lots of pple. n it was super funni. cos we kept forgetting wad we wanna sae. so half e time we were lk..erhhs?
9. sneaked off to music room wiv alan. cos i wanted lit ! hahas. simply love lit mans. tks fer bringing me dere. (: n visited ms nora.
10.went to music room agains. cos mrs tan asked us to go.
so we two went agains. n always throughout e journey it was lk.
super cutes de. cos lots of tings happens. lolx.
11.went tea breaks. (:

after tea break. den afterwhile. pj n mx dey all went to see e lit tingy.
before dey left. i sat on e floor. cos kinda tireds.
den alan came n sitted wiv me too.
okays. so he was lk listenin to his hp song.
n im lk tryin hard to hear wad he listenin lor. cos e music so messy. =X
den lata.. we two den realise. oh ohs. all left. all went to the lit class.
so we canot leave.
den we jus sat dwn dere.
bud i went to sat on chair le. so do him. cos was lk.
gt chair dun wan sit. sit floor. =.=

hees. though left us onlie
bud was fun.
sorrie im abit slow. bud i learnt finish le!
i noe hw to pull e rubber bands le.
hahas..tks alot fer teachin.
hehe. n had a nice chat wiv u fer super longs..
[ along e corridor. in hall..etc ]
hahas. u r lames. bud nt bads. lolx
e least. i laugh alot lors. hahax.

n those kids !
whom is jus super ke aiis.
hahas. nn e bear bear ! hehe. i simply love it.
ard..5.30 lidat.
den we five started playin liaos.
hahas. at 1st is me n alan playin wiv e gliiter.
cos he la. put the glitter on my hand. so i put back
den came pj n mx.
n lastly serwee!
omgs omgs lor. plae until e hall lk super shiny le. =X
den we took fotos. hahas.

love my dae lots.!
hehes.
2nd sora training todae! (:

hiim.

2006-07-06T20:22:00.000-07:00

im xiin fu.
i tink i realli am ba.
though i realli duno iif ur ans is yes or no ?
pple sae yes.
bud im e onlie person hu tells myself.
no ba.
sumhw, u bein so nice to me realli make me feel lk tellin u ..
" dun so nice to me hao ma ? lidat like givin me hopes..if u are nt givin me hopes..den tell me.."

thks fer waitin todae.
budd sorrie. din go home wiv u .
i noe u understand de.
n talked to u todae. was realli..
made me even more bu she de ?
it realli seemed lk..
miss u more le ?
=( ben ben dans.

todae had super lots of funs wiv pj and serwee.
hehes. pj.sw!
rmb..shark.hamtaro.bear.
hahas. dey r super cutes alrites. :)
n todae in chem lab. we 3 do titration together.
n it was lk. we 3 tikam de lor. cos is lk .
we gt no mood to do.
den half e time. e cher kip correcting us on hw we set up
den we were lk so blurr.. cos cher las time also din sae mus lidat ma.
den serwee n me n pj. kip laughing lor.
hahas. it was lk so comicals.
n dey two kip teasing me.=.=
hahas.

den later had to stae back cos of moe excel festival tings.
till kinda late ba.

humphs. i miss u . reali am missing u .
bud wad cn i do ?
nths. =(

SORA.

2006-07-02T00:54:00.000-07:00

halos.
im goin to back track abit as usuals bahs.
hehe. on..28th june 2006.
had the japanese xchnge. it was super funs.
hahas. alot of handsome guys. hees. n the gurls were so cute.
n it was lk.. took darn lots of photos.
wiv e guys n gurls.
dey kip wantin us to take photo.
so okayys . took. hahas. (:

n i love e three of dems. mori and matsumoto dey all
hehe. so swiits of dem to giv us presents.
n esp. mori dey all. hehe. n a few guys hu were super friendlie whn dey first saw me till dey left.
nn dey gave me deir emails. =)
yaps. dat shld b a brief summary abt e jap. tingy.

nxt sat. goin for the MOE excel fest. tingy lo.
bud jus kinda busy cos of it.
n tis few daes.
i practically lie flat on my bed.
cos im jus so tired out.
i've gt sorethroats.cough.headaches. abit no voice le.
n everynite came home at 11.30 e earliest lo.
slept at 1am lidat.
yest. was lk 2am alreadi.

n i still gt homework to cope.
faiting soon wiv all tis.
n plus e fact tat. i dun lk med. =X

xiaoting! dun worrie. im nt acting strong.
bud tis is jus realli me.
hahas. im realli alrites. if u ask sum of my other closer frens..
dey wld noe tis is me. bud nt cos i actin strong.
hahas. din noe y ba. jus kind of diin cry ..
n fer e other tings..though i may b sad.
bud afterall im still happiie.

I LOVE SORA. HEHE. (:
im no. eight !

strong girl girl.

2006-06-30T00:01:00.000-07:00

halox.
long time since i update.
cos. my great granny passed awae.
she passed awae on..wed nite.
10.15pm.
i was nt wiv her. bud was home.
so dad call me n told me. at 1st. i asked him.
" r u playin ? stop playin le. "
bud he actuali replied. its true.

so naturallie de..
my tears drops.
drop n drop. i stared at e computer screen.
practicallie askin everyone to leave me alone.
cos i wanted to calm dwn before talkin bahs.
den went to granny place.
i cried. whn i saw her.
so i kneel dwn beside her..
bud soon after. surprisingly. i stopped cryin.
till nw. i stopped.

hmm. tis is call bein strong ?
im nt sure bahhs.
bud for one ting im sure. im sad inside.
bud. jus cldn't had any tears out.
wells. tis few daes. or rather since yest.
was feelin better le. though still sad.
budd e least. im better den wed nite. (:
n i comfort pple hu r sad instead! hees.

yesterdae.[thurs] was nice.
cos. at 1st i was moody. din had the mood to do anitings.
bud lata stayed back wiv pj do hw.
den saw wq.yh.vin.
so ask if dey wan stae back peii us.
den dey sae okie.
hahas. thankew bro.
wivout u all peii me go home. n wait bus.
hahas. i wld nt hav smiled the first time. cos of u all de laming. =P

tis few nites. hav been home veh late. reall veh late.
n im sickks.
sore throats. sneezin sumtimes. headache. giddiness.
n i cant realli eat alot. no appetites bahs. =(
todae. skipped co. cos went to funeral to help outs.
went home myself. n while walkin.
i almost cried.
bud i held back my tears.
i tried to b a strong girl,in terms of my great granny. and in terms of u .
hw much longer mus i b dat strong ..
m i realli cut out to be dat strong gurl other pple noes?

sumtimes i jus tot .
perhaps all tis while. im jus a dumb straw straw?
y shld i bother everythings abt u .
n even upset.
n even foolished enough to hav sum tots of ..
seeing the rainbow. seeing the hopes n miracles droppin on me.
bud in actual fact.
no hopes. no miracles. no rainbow.
onlie rains. thunderstorms.

im tirreds.
leave me alones'
perhaps bein alone.
i might nt see any hopes.
n none hopes wld be shattered.

lifes. my great granny.

2006-06-25T21:38:00.000-07:00

fri was niice.
sat till nw was bads.

fri was nice cos.
kind of a nice dae bahs.
had co in mornins. played wiv those few as usual durin nyaa. =)
den afternoon went lot one wiv pj.
we went to eat lunch. n we talk alot. hees.
den later went plaza to find sis. cos she wanted buy tings.
so i acc her.
den went home.

Sat was nice at e startin.
went salons wiv mummie n auntie.
cut hair. shoppins. dinner.

after dinner i went back to granny hse to c my great granny.
she was super unfeeling well dat nite particularly.
so called familie doctor to visit her.
den doc arrived ard 45mins later. so gave her a check.
n surprisingly de is. doctor sae. let's tok outside abt her condition
fer dat moment. i realli stunned . nv lk tis before de .

so outside. n e doctor told us. shes old alreadi. 92 yrs old.
if u all wan i cn giv her a jab. make her live on.
bud its gonna be very xin ku.
so he suggested. let her go.. jus let her go..
n e crucial period is btw. todae n tmr.
she wun get over e week. e doctor saes.
whn i heard dat. i completelie jus went silent.
den i cried.

realli bahs. i was feeling very dwn.
cos im very close wiv all my grandparents.
is lk..i visit dem every wk. n even durin weekdaes if im free.
n further more. since i was lk born ?
so i realli dno wad to do ..
i noe very well dat.. shes old.. she gt to leave. its better fer her perhaps.
bud sumhw.i canot bear to.

i looked at her todae.
held her hands. n i realli .. gt nth to describe those kind of feelings.
its very sad de.
im afraid. if i jus walk awae tis min. e next min im back.
iif shes gone le den hw ?
i wun get to c her anymore. n i saw hw hard she tried to breath.
though half e time she was panting awae.
n i feel so helpless. cos i can do nth to make her feel more comfortable.

ze me bans?
i tried very hard to b strong le.
try nt to cry in front of her..n still smilin to her to ask her to rest if shes tired.
bud she gave me no reaction.
dat sudden coldness of hers. realli frightened me alot.
sry. bud i jus cant help to be feeling very moodless tis few daes.
so pple. pls understand.
iif u all can. help to cheer me up.
cos im sure. my great granny wld wan me to smilex.

so pple. mus cherish everything nw.
cos. tings might jus leave u e nxt moments.
its true..

GREAT GRANNY. IF U R TIREDS. JUS SLEEPS I GUESS. AS LONG AS U R NT SUFFERING.U JUST LEAVE BAHS.

happie burfdae to pples. alot of dems.

2006-06-22T18:30:00.000-07:00

i shall back track abit. hehe.
on e 18th was father's dae plus my daddie's birthdae.
hees. so me n sister went shoppins before 18th n bought him a shirt.
two shirts to b exact. hehe.
docker's de. so he cn wear dem to workks. (:

19th. was benny's birthdae!
hehe. me n shuni share present.
bought hiim e adidas shoes.
shuni buy wiv him de.. in bugis i suppose?
cos i canot go wiv herr and benny.
19th was e dae. i put braces.
hees. so kinda put till late evenings.
den is lk. kind of nt used to the braces on mondae.
so mummie dun let me meets dem after dat also.
bud nvms bahs. hahas.
i wasn't feeling dat well either. =P

nw de me is wiv braces le.
im so nt use to seein myself wiv it.
its baby blue.
though actualli i wanted to put lk two colours.
budd. i thought. i better get used to my braces before i put more colours.
heehee. cos i noe i do looked abit dotx wiv it. xD

somwhw. im sort of. used to tokin to someone.
hahs. iif diin tok.
its lk sumthing missing fer e dae.
bud nvms .
its healthy i suppose.
so i wun b so borreds.
hees. thks alots anywaes. =)

oh yahs.! n before i forget . todae is my sista's birthdae!
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY SIS.
hahas. i love u to bits n pieces.
e one hu always goes shoppins wiv me.
n always sharin alot of probs wiv me too. hehes.
19 tis yr le. gonna miss u whn u go fer gylc for two wks in UK & US.
=(

tings lidat uhs?

2006-06-20T16:50:00.000-07:00

nwadaes.
even i see those sad sad shows.
e 1st one i thot of iis still u.
n my tears will almost drop out de.
den i always hold n hold.
den look up.

why lidat?
tis shows i haven get over ?
tis shows until nw i canot giv up. ?
is it tis case ?

braces,

2006-06-19T22:59:00.000-07:00

i love my dae. i love my dae nt.
so do i or do i nt ?

i love.
cos i played super alots wiv ken. yuyao. lyn. yuhui.
hahas. n dey made me laugh so much.
which is lk..
during co.. though diana.joanne nv cums.
n yuyao taught me hw to plae erhu !
hees. thks alot fer bein so patient . nn.. ur erhu skills is super!
hahas.. thks fer playin songs fer me to listen to .
hehes. xD
for e duet. piano and erhu. i will try my best de. =P

lyn taught me zhong ruan.
den we four he zhou.
hahas. "long teng "
half e times.. we were laughin n laughin. till stomach realli pains lo.
n durin our break. we went to drink water.
wa. ken realli finished my swiit. =P i tot he jokin onlie nahs.
den later he realli finished.
hahs. nvms bahs. hehe.
wells. i love ems. haas. fridae. we four shall plae morres!

i dun love my dae. cos cos.
todae put braces le.
though nt veh paiins. bud sumhw.
surelie cos of e pressure..and etc..
makes it paiins .
haas. wad m i tokin ? hees.
in short. its a little pains.
sobs ..

those few daes.
were in temple.
hahs. kinda hav fun wiv eileen,peipei,kit,and those few ! hahas.
n is lk.. very comicals throughout.
esp. on sundae.
sumthings happend.
i dunno hw to handle dems.
hahs. accept or nt ?
wad shld i do pples?

i saw dat u frm afar ! hahahs. =)

11 AND 15 THINGS ABT ME.

2006-06-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

Facts abt me. =)

WHEN...

1. im quiet.
im either sad or im tireds n im thinking alot in my mind.

2. i sae im fine after a few seconds.
im nt at all fine. perhaps im only slightly better den those few seconds ago.

3. i stares at you.
its nt on purpose. hahs. perhaps im jus tinkin of tings n unknowingly stared at u . =P

4. i dun cry whn im hurt.
means im numbed.

5. i cry when im hurt..
means e person really hurt me alot.

6. i laugh alot and smile alot.
i mean it. im happie.
bud iif i jus smile fer a few seconds.
means i din wan anyone to noe im sad.

7. i sae u r good or u r e person i cherish/love/like.
i mean it. =)

8. im serious wiv work.
i will work n work hards till i make dat thing complete.

9.i sae im really in pains.
its realli paiins. cos usually . im gd at withstanding pains.
and i still smiled to pple whn im in pains.
cos cos smilin is healthy. hahs. ^^

10. im sad.
i am really sad to e corres.
no nth else cn really cheer me up.
unless u r those pple hu really understands me alot.

11. im sick.
i practically feels lk givin awae my nose or wadever.
cos it makes me so sickly. hahahas. bleahs.

THE THINGS I DO...

1. sleep with all my teddy bears every night. hehe.

2. Craps.Plae.Talks. alot wiv those lalas pple.

3. Play piano almost every day.

4.Blog alot about my daily life. though half e time im lazy.

5. though deres alot of things to do. i always seemed bored.

6. trying to cheer everyone around me. includin the pple whom i duno.

7. smile to everyone whom i meet.

8.lendin e pple ard me my ears . n kipin deir secrets safe wiv me.

9.jump ard whn im super hyper.
[ tis onlie happens when im wiv two seven ] ^_^

10. Visit my grandparents at least once a week.
accompany them to talks. hees. cos dey r super boreds.

11.talk to the motivator everydae.
seems lk my daily routine. hahs. =P

12. onlines when i can. hees.

13. Lookin up into the sky at nites.
iif deres alot of stars. den i wld count. till i lost count.
hehehs.

14. look at handphone at least more den five times a dae.

15. im jus being e person of who i am.
hees. same logic.
i jus smile whn i wans. bleahs whn i feels like. =P

wq rockks. hehe. (:

2006-06-16T18:22:00.000-07:00

i loves my dae.
i love dems.
hahas.

todae had co as usuals.
cos its fridae mahs.
so mornins had nyaa. frm 9.30-12.30
den lata had lunch.
yays! lunch. i finallie ate noodles le. hehe.
e whole wk i was eatin porridge lo. so sad de.
after lunch had combine practice!
hehe. " long teng " hen hao ting..
though veh fast. bud veh niice. =))

thks to diana.joanne.peijie.lyn who peii me eat coffee shop.
cos dey noe i canot take fast food mahs.
den i ate prawn noodles. wivout prawn. =.=
cos. i canot bite prawn . so its lk so sad case de.

den while walkin to school.
finallie wq iin school le! hahas.
so i run run run up to band room to find him .
buden canot go iin..
cos pple dun let us iin..
so nvms. hahas. nxt time e person nt in le..den canns. ^^

den went back to co fer prac.
ard 4pm lidat.
went to find wq agains. so funns. hees.
tokin crap .
den after co finish le..den went bball court find him lo.
while waiting den me n pj tokin craps.
cos sum things made us very fustrateds. =.=
jus cant understand sumtimes.
den later took bus homes wiv dems.

hehe. dey all hen hao. waited fer us.
lalalas.

n i will always rmb. we've telepathy. =P

wei shen me ?

2006-06-15T21:42:00.000-07:00

im feelin so bads nw.
cos of braces. thus nid to put seperators.metal.pluck 4 tooth.
plucked 2 on tuesdae.
2 todae.
bud todae was realli very..dotz.
it hurts alot.
i ate pain killers twice le.
n its lk..
e pain din even go dwn..
my tears droppin out lerrs.

and suddenlie.
i tot abt. l.o.v.e.
i guess no one's love is worst den i do ba.
its jus.
im like such a dumb dumbs.
so long le.
nt as iif a few mths.
bud its lk..fer a very long time le..
im still..
i realli dread myself alot for this.

wei shen me ai shang ni de ren shi wo...

pictures and pictures..

2006-06-14T21:31:00.000-07:00

heres some pictures to show u all...

pple wiv e model. ^^

my dearrs. hahas.

Me and twinny !

us agains. (:

those r jus some shoes.. hahs.

xueting n me! (zilian-ing) =P

some stars under the sun.

two sevens

2006-06-14T19:16:00.000-07:00

hees. halos.
its been a super long time since i blog !
cos tis few daes im realli so super busy playins.studyins. =X

10th june 2006
had pianos as usual. den went dwn to paragon.
cos visited my dentist.
n dr chua put the seperator in for me.
starting nt dat pains. sho still was able to eat.
went to japanese restaurant to eat.
e food was niice. n dinner . had vegetarian food.
though vegetarian. bud kind of niice too.
den lata hurry dwn to temple le. cos was late.
den had temple all e wae to 4am !
den i slept.

11 june 2006
woke up at 11am. bud still i was tiredds.
den nt feelings well.
cos e seperator hurts alot.
thus i din went fer tuitions.
stayed at home at rested.
evenings den went to granny hse fer dinner. =)

12 june 2006
tis was e onlie dae. which i tink i will rmb hards.
hahs. erms. i means. e least fer holidaes.
cos i went out wiv two sevens.
dere was..
.weiqing.yuhui.henry.peijie.alvin.xueting.jingting.weiying.aifang.yixin.zhi zheng.kaisheng.yonghui.jiajun.calvin.fadhli.marvin.youyi.wee leong.
hahas.

it was super duper funs.!
supposedlie to meet them 12.45pm at lot one mac outside.
so i actualli wanted to took 12pm bus. (184)
budd i missed it.
sho i tot i was late.
bud iin end. i waited fer ____ until 5 190 past.
hahas. den later wait till. weiqing also late.
hahas. sho we took bus togethers. =)
bud its alrite. hees. i dun mind waitings.
cn count no. of bus ! hahahs. xD
whn reached lot one le..mani pple lates too !
sho we jus hang ard 1st lo.

den later so comical la.
cos henry sae he goin toilet. so i okie. i wait fer others.
den lata he cum out le.
i dno y. budd. becum my turn to sae i go toilet.
hahs. which later peijie cames along !
and den. we went arcade. =)
hahas. pple played bball.
niice one. (: hees.
n hanged ard fer awhiles. den we took mrt to marina.
half e time. hurhs.pple tricked me. ask me alight the other side!
budd. i diin. hahas. gd dat i diin.
iif nt i blur blur de.

n in mrt was super siians. standin n tokin wiv pj.
so i borrowed mp3 frm sumone!
hahas. dat sumone..thks alot.
hehes. though u listenin. bud u still lend me. :D
u rock nerhs. hahas.
den reached marina le. was fuuns. while waitin fer 400.
den dey all playin wiv e advertisement model .
hahas. though lames. bud e least. it was cutes.

1. we played arcade.
played fer super longs.
n 1st time played wiv pj.
den later wq. help me !
he try to grab the bear bear frm those kind of machines.
bud failed.
its alrites though. =)

2. we bought kites. den we flew dems.
realli very fun !
budd e field was like darn muddy lo.
cos it jus raiined jus nw.
den my white shoes turned abit blacks.
and. i finallie learned hw to fly kites.
hahas. im jus super hyper mans!
n calvin saved our dae! he taught us hw to flew kites.
which e logic was run wiv the wind.
after all e flyin.
it was like.. all the white pants or shoes turned black.
den all were lk super hot. hahs.

3. went back to arcades!
hahas. xueting dey all played para para. nice ones.
hees. cos pj tokin on fone.
so no one peii wo.
den alvin peii wo plae arcade.
n weiqing too !
yippes. thks pples.
n wq helped me play guns n the safari thingy !
hahas. childish. lames. bud niice. =)

4. standin outside arcade.
hees. had a nice chat wiv weiqing.
kinda lames as usual.
n we two were lk crappin alot to tell the uncle we will go n eat later.
hahahs. =X

5. went to eat steamboat cum barbeque!
hahas. it was niice.
stubborn me! cos he ask me dun take plates. ask my table pple helps.
bud i insisted.
cos i diin wan to trouble dems. in the end. i troubled him. lolx.
hees. den . xt dey all help me take crabmeat . etc. ( all those soft soft food)
den dey helped me cook too.
hahahs.bud i burnt my hand. sobs. gt one mark le. =(
n while drinkin water.
wq wanns to drink. hahas.
so gave him our ice lemon tea.
den later. i see him nt enuff ma. den he also dun wan buy himself.
kaee. so i bought fer hiims.
n place it on his seat quietlie whn he was awae !
bud he still found out aniwae. =P
cos it was all thks to him..
den our prawns gt some hopes de! =)

6. we chiongs to the bus stop.
to take 400.
we played alot.
realli alot on the bus.
and almost missed our bus stop.
n while walkin to mrt station.
dey scare me lo.
ask me dun look left dun look right.
cos later i see things i shldn't =P
bud gt dem wiv me. i nt so scared lahs.
and i top up my card in mrt station!
hees. n dey waited fer me.
hahas. so swit of dem . thankew guys . ! (:

7. on mrt.
smsed.
n walked ard in mrt.
super funs.
lk playin hide n seek wiv zhi zheng. hahahs.

8. lot one.
waited fer dems cos dey wanted buy drinks.
den later took lrt.
pples.! thks alot fer takin lrt too. (:
which later i tink i was stupid.
sumone was jus beside me.
n i called him.
hahas. lidat.. more le qu nerhs.!
den i alighted at phoniex. daddie fetch me dere.
it was alreadi like 10pm le lo.
so lates lerhhs. hees.

wells. i love my dae.
i love dems.
its onlie dems dat cn make me hyper. high !
and make me happie.
lalalals.
two seven wan sui ! =P

i tot of u ...

2006-06-08T20:21:00.000-07:00

hiie.
i diin noe why.
i realli duno.
todae suddenlie i had so much feelings to everythings dat i read. i saw. and those memories which i recall.
memories from sec two onwards.
everything flash n flash.
sumtimes memories do hurt alot.
bud others are happie ones.

as wad i told yonghui de.
i dun even dare to qn myself iif i give up anot.
cos. so wad iif i haven giv up.
does it makes any sense to tok abt it nw ?
iif i haven giv up till nw.
im at fault. its my wrong. cos i shld have.
and its a must i shld giv up.

bud why is it after such a long time.
i still kept holding onto it.
even after so many things happened.
do i realli fall into so deep ?
i hoped i can answer myself too.

i dun wan to be dat naive gurl again.
tinkin dat hopes will be given to me, tinkin dat miracle wld falls on me.
when i noe none of such tings will happened.
i really dread those kind of feelings which hurt me alot.
cos. everytimes tis memories jus make me weaker n weaker ?

tis few daes. or rather durin the holidaes.
i realli have been stronger.
tryin hard to smile at everything dat had happend.
nt to drop a single tears becos i told myself. i mus be strong.
n use smiles to replace the tears.
n i shld. be happie.
bud i start to qn myself..
perhaps as wad serwee said..
is being strong realli dat good ? or being weak is better ?

i realli ponder alot.
and those memories of the past.
i wished i cld jus wash my hands of dem.
nt putting anymore concern.care. in iit .

bud wells. i guess. being strong is still better.
strong still suits me better rather den bein the weaker side of me.

dun giv me hopes. iif u r bound to dash my hopes in the end..

baby

2006-06-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

halos!!
hahas.
todae. i realli found out dat..
i realli realli do love babies alot !
cos dey r simply super duper cutes .
n i jus cant help bud smiling whn i see dems.
hehes.

woke up at 9am todae.
hahas. denn did my stuff. practise piano till it was 12pm.
cos i prac. lots of songs.
den i faster faster tied hair.

which after dat den i realise!
no one at home . nt even a single one in granny hse!
den die le lo. nth to eat fer whole mornings.
so i decided. yuhui shall cook fer herself!
instead of being starve. hahas
sho i cooked.
MAGGIE MEE !
hahas.its niice . (:

den i hurry to school le.
cos gt co meeting..at 1pm.
den im like..late le lo.

den on 190 i saw the baby .
hahas. she was jus. omgs lo.
hees. den i was like so hyper . den kip describin e baby to ** .
hahas.den so niice lo.
i jus kip smilin to e baby.
den she was lk pullin my fingers?
hahas. whhees. babies r jus my lifes.!
seein dem realli cheers up my daee nerhs. (:

so i was lk walk fast fast.
hees. den i kind of abit lates . budd nvms.cher was late too . xD
sho had co.
funs. alot of funs wiv diana n joanne agains.
hees. we kept playin. =X

love those pples.

2006-06-06T15:08:00.000-07:00

hahas.
i love those pple ard me !
cos dey r realli so nice to me. =)
pockies . chocolates . japanese food . pianos .
yays. hahas. love u all to e corres le.

tmr! my twinny goins malaysia le.
hahas.pei pei . will miss u de.
n those few hu r goins too.

todae is a super boreds dae.
nths to do de.
tutions in mornins. later 4+ have tuitions agains.
at nite. probably go temple wiv mummie or sumthings.
nwadaes. im sho used to slpin at 12am and above.
hahas. iif nt sumtimes den 1am or 2am lidats.
cos i diin wan to turn in dat early.
abit borreds. i rather do some math. read sum things.
or chats wiv pples. (:

my lifes nw is i duno wad it is called ?
freedom ? single ?
i duno iif tis is e kind of life i wans.
bud if tis is e onlie life i cn live wiv.
i guess i will still live on it wells.

piano pianos!

2006-06-05T14:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPIE BURFDAE YONGHUI AND XUETING !
may all of u all de wishes cums true. (:

hees. yesterdae was a niice niice dae.
cos i went to wisma for lunch wiv daddy.mummy.sister.
den went to centrept. cos dad wanns buy shoes frm Robinson.
so buy finish le..den we on e wae up to the car park dat time..
den walk past.. " Robert's piano " shop.
cos. daddy said he wld buy new piano for me de.
so..he brought me into the shop.
dere was alot n alot of pianos dere.
4 grandpianos.
den alot pianos.
hahas.

i saw one.
which was realli very very nice.
n is e person recommend de.
cos she sae aniwae my piano exams is still goin on.
so e piano dat i saw is the standard piano for exams.
the brand of it was KAWAI .
made in japan .
buden e piano iis realli darn nice.
and the price super nice too . =.=
hahas. e lady even told me . dere was 6 digits one too.
den i sae..nono..i dun wan. lolx.
though on sale. bud e piano still so expensive.

plus my braces. plus pianos.
=X
though my dad sae he dun mind.
bud.. i tink i mind alot ?
nvms. i gt the brochure. the telephone no. of the lady.
and iif i realli wan. i shall giv her a call.
hahas. (:

nw. im seriouslie so borreds.
deres no one onlines.
no one talkins to me.
goin to die le.
shall nt exist anymores. =X